I'm so glad I'm not in charge

Sometimes...oftentimes, actually, people let me down. In fact, I'm pretty sure every person I have ever trusted and gotten close to has let me down in one way or another. I'm the kind of person that will unleash her entire life story to just about anyone. I feel that honesty should be a foundation in any sort of relationship (and when i say "any sort of relationship," that includes every sort of relationship). I think it is important to trust (to an extent) until you have a reason not to. By entrusting my life to so many people, however, I know I'm setting myself up to be let down. But that's bound to happen, since we're only human, right?

I am so tempted to get discouraged when someone I have disclosed so much to seems to lose interest in a relationship. Thoughts of inferiority creep into my head as I wonder if some part of my life, personality, or past has scared them away. There is one thing that prevents me from losing myself in these feelings of insignificance.

What is that one thing? The fact that my God found my life so valuable that he died to save it. The more I seek approval and entrust my life into the hands of men, the more I will continue to be disappointed. But as I continue to walk in the grace that God has given me, I find myself returning grace to those around me that deserve it as little as I do. Just as my Lord finds worth in the worthless, I try and continue optimistically to find the bright side in everyone else. That's why I don't (or try my hardest not to) withhold honesty.